Meditations: Restless for a Lullaby

Took me awhile to decide on posting this. But maybe, maybe the song's for you.


So restless I can't even find a song,
there where I belong;
neither poem nor prayer nor litany
can end the ceaseless melody
of disquiet unharmony
breaking inside my soul.

God most high,
God who is,
God most holy,
God come save me---
Save me from myself
and let the tears come down,
let it all come down,
crashing down, to the ground.

Break, O soul;
Weep and wail;
know that tyranny won't prevail
and the darkness must die;
and the veil must lift--
or else this is all in vain,
striving after the wind,
and you but yourself mist.

Cry, O soul, if you can find the tears,
Rage, spirit inside,
or else be terrified---
won't you live, heart of flesh,
or is that only a stone,
a stone with neither ears nor eyes,
and faded brittle bone.

Dust of man fall;
O heavens, be appalled;
Grace not the door of my escape--
Spirit of God, can you give me grace?
Down here, the grace to walk;
the grace to stand;
the grace to walk in your command?

God of Glory, come down again;
or lift me up, whichever be
in your sight the most pleasing.
Yours I am; yours I'll be----
That is my vow;
where else can I go?

God, my God, where are you?
God, my God, dwell with me,
and forever a temple I'll be;
God, my God, lover of my soul til death--
death which I'll never taste--
Spirit me onward, lest I fall--
can I at least clutch your robe?

Is bleeding really living;
Is sorrow really dying?
Shall I live forever
In the duel of heart and soul?
God, my God, strength of mine--
Come heal me; make me whole;
aren't I yours, Daddy?


Let me in tonight;
I'll run nowhere else;
To Zion only shall I go;
To Sinai's peak with an unveiled face;
to the mercy seat between cherubim--
There, there only shall you find
This elusive child of Thine.

God most high,
come meet with me---
How well I knew you once;
How we laughed and danced--
Can we sing again,
Sing over me tonight,
Let your voice breathe over me;
Let your fingers touch my soul.

I love you.
Goodnight.